2021.12.09 08:31 Gabriel_the_Heretic What is karma on Reddit and why everyone crave it?!?
I do not understand why there are so many reposts of the chat with probably fake girl that likes trebuchets about date. But even less I understand why the hell would she pay if the other person got 100 "karma". What is that?
Thaks for the answers but I hope they are not going to make me crave karma as well 😅
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2021.12.09 08:31 Mushylover6969 Funeral flowers
Were the funeral flowers really from Samantha or were they from Charlotte and Miranda? The look and comment they made about them kinda confused me…
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2021.12.09 08:31 5igorsk Хорошее, внятное сокращение Немецко-американского петролеумного общества!
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2021.12.09 08:31 MSFDragunov Question about equipment
Regarding support equipment that mention a specific mech in the description; does that equipment only give bonuses when equipped to that mech specifically or can I put it on any mech and enjoy the benefits?
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2021.12.09 08:31 CretanByHeart The Great Godly Challenge event
2021.12.09 08:31 FFiamgoku Kara's age in season 3?
Just want some clarification, if anyone knows how old Kara is supposed to be in season 3.
I thought she was 27-28, but I don't know if that's exact.
Anyone able to narrow down her season 3 age? (during, or by the end of season 3)
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2021.12.09 08:31 karmicviolence M81 - 12/10
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2021.12.09 08:31 johnrock001 Anime Girl Names - Top Anime Girl Names With Meaning List
2021.12.09 08:31 Mr_developerYT Unity 2020.3+ Water Shader With Foam!
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2021.12.09 08:31 HoodQuran Wellington Creatures
What’s up with Wellington as a whole, idk if it’s just me but that place be on its own wave lengths ong, the place just seems like, it’s social customs is different to the rest of NZ, especially if I compare it with AKL or CHCH, I can make a joke in AKL where if I said it in WLG then they’ll get all mad, I’ll probably get cancelled and banned from the city
Like when I speak Wellington I mean the inner area, I’m not too sure how it’s city area works but from my limited understanding, the “privileged” areas are more bunched in the city, and then the not too wealthy suburbs are a few KMs north, but i could be wrong
the reputation it’s got is that its just a left wing province, living in a woke dystopia where white, straight males are the most privileged beings to walk the earth, when you disgruntle a local they seem so judgy and loves to label everyone who opposes their opinion a narcissist or oppressor.
To trigger someone you either bring up pronouns, race, or say you voted for anyone other then labour or greens, and boom their easily offended. They seem to love calling out white people, for being white online too. I feel like I need to carry a race card that I’m a Maori to feel like my opinion is validated, why does my race have to matter to a septum wearing pot smoker
The city dwellers just seems so privileged that they need to throw themselves into other minorities issues and seem like a superhero, a lot of what you’d call “trendy” topics get SPOKEN about a lot there, whether it’s climate change, BLM, LGBT or Maori and PI topics, if I’m not with their opinion on the issues then I’m “uneducated” and a “oppressor”, this could be a specific group of people but a lot seem bred from WLG.
I’ve been told by WLG locals “Māoris can’t be racist to white people”. Like when did that become a thing? Never heard anything like that once in AKL and CHCH, and yes I’m Maori living in heavily brown populated areas, we don’t talk like that at all
I based this on people I’ve met from there, what I’ve seen online with socials and it’s University, this isn’t my own entire opinion but rather what I’ve understood, I’m just someone who’s never indulged there and this is what I’ve learnt from it. This knowledge isn’t just something that’s new too, WLG has been woke for a while now
I’m not trying to shit on the place cause I’ve met algds people from there, and it’s a cool city, this is just the rep it’s garnered, i could just be talking about a certain group of people really but I’m just tryna figure it out
Prolly will get some heat for this but atleast make it constructive, I’m just seeing if I’m tripping or if others feel it too.
May be a few grammatical errors but who cares
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2021.12.09 08:31 CultureAnxious Odin has some strong eyebrows
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2021.12.09 08:31 TemporaryCorner5688 Started to get scared of myself (please help)
I posted this on another sub but got no replies, so I'll try here too as I'm desperate for help.
This is going to be really long (sorry in advance). So basically, I'm not diagnosed with NPD, but my psychiatrist says I have strong traits, and from what I've researched I am the definition of a covert narcissist. Also I'm dyslexic so the spelling and grammar is going to be horrible. The first bit is just background for context and not necessary to read:
Background (not super important):
2 years ago I started dating my ex boyfriend (we are both in our early 20s, I'm a female). He was really sweet, had some mental health problems, and 'fell in love' with me almost immediately. He had allot of relationship anxiety and unhealthy attachment issues, and so did I. It was both of our first relationship. We dated for a bit over a year. In this time I completely lied about everything. I pretty much reinvented myself to match someone he would want. At first I didn't really like him, but soon fell in love and I became completely obsessed with him. Our relationship was really intense and quite unhealthy, as we both had so many issues, but at its basis I really do think I loved him. I know he loved me too. So so deeply, but I could not understand why, the entire time I thought he was using me, that he was going to cheat on me, that he would realise how ugly and boring I was and end things. I was just projecting, and I was so insecure. He became my best and pretty much only friend. I loved spending time with him, I loved talking to him, just being around him made me feel safe and warm inside. He was my entire life. Now I'm starting to wonder if I actually loved him, or if it was just obsession because I had no one else and I liked the way he made me feel. I'm not sure.
I had immense relationship anxiety, but I think that allot of what I thought was 'anxiety' was just moments where I couldn't control him, or he wouldn't behave as I wanted him too. These moments where I had no control over him made me feel so powerless and anxious because I was so sure he would leave me.
He thought I was the sweetest, most honest, wonderful girlfriend ever, when in reality it was just a facade. I was super toxic and manipulative, and really good at hiding it. I would purposefully go out of my way to make up stories about guys flirting with me, made up exes, told him I had pervious relationships even if he was my first, show him pics of guys I had things with in the past that were hotter than him to make him insecure. All of this just to make him jealous and insecure. To create this image that I was hot shit and that I held the power in the relationship. I was using dating apps and talking to guys I had things with in the past throughout most of the relationship, purely for attention/ in moments when I was super anxious and thought he was cheating on me. I would always fantasise about meeting some guy that was hotter, cooler, richer than him and leaving my ex for him, breaking his heart. At its basis all the things I would do were because I was just so insecure, but wanted to feel like I had power and control over the situation. In also did them because I thought I deserved 'better', that I was superior to him and he wasn't good enough. When in reality we're both equally attractive, he has millions of friends, I have 0, he had a life outside of me, I didn't. I am a university drop out, doing nothing all day, lying to him about being in my second year of uni, and he actually graduated from uni. I was the loser. Everything was a lie. I have nothing going on for me.
I had just moved to a new city when I met him, and didn't know anyone. I had a few friends, but all of them knew a 'different' part of me, as I just mirror the people that I'm around. I was embarrassed of them and was scared that my ex would not like them or think they were 'cool' enough. So he never met any of them. I made up so many people and friends, would talk to him about people and all these luxurious parties that didn't exist just so he thought I was super popular. I also grew up in a different country, and never made friends there either (because I'm clearly just not a pleasant person and everyone irritates me after a while), but would still make people up so he thought I was this super popular person in highschool, when I was actually the lame, weirdo with no friends. It was easy to keep all of this and my family hidden, as there was lockdown. I was terrified of lockdown ending, him meeting my family or anyone I knew and find out about all my lies.
We dated for a bit over a year, until I ended up cheating on him with his brother. This happened a year ago. I had met his brother briefly once, he was older and didn't live in the same city as us. The night before I cheated, I went to a party with my ex, his brother, and some of their friends and cousins. That night I became obsessed with the brother. I felt drawn to him, like we had something that others didn't, some weird understanding. I thought I could see through him, that he was just like me (I think he has NPD too actually). The day after that night, I saw him again and kissed him. I initiated it. That night my ex wasn't there, but there were some of their friends, and obviously his brother. I was completely drunk, and on allot of drugs (was the first time in the relationship I had ever taken drugs). I can't remember allot, but apparently the way I acted, and the stuff I said made the brother and his friends realise and tell my ex that I'm a sociopath.
Background (a bit more important):
Looking back, the emotions I felt after I cheated were not normal. I don't think I felt any empathy for him. I felt allot of shame. So much shame that my mask was ripped off. That the people close to my ex saw the 'real me'. So basically all I have been doing since the cheating is trying to make my ex see me for who he thought I was, not who his brother and friends are telling him I am. I told him I would start super intensive therapy to fix myself so we could get back together. In reality my intention for starting therapy had nothing to do with me trying to fix myself, it was to do with the fact that I wanted him to think I was, so he would take me back. I put on this persona to my new therapist, to come across as super innocent, that it was all a mistake, I was the victim and he was a horrible boyfriend, that's why I cheated. I would have my ex sit in the room while I had my therapist on loudspeaker over the phone, I would feed my therapist shit, so that I knew he would reply telling me how great I was, how much improvement I had made etc. all just so my ex would hear. I completely managed to make myself the victim of the situation. Everyone pitied me. My friends, therapist, family. Even my ex would repeatedly break down crying, saying how it was his fault and how sorry he was. All of this worked for several months, my ex was still completely in love with with me. I would always tell him how we should stop talking and seeing each-other, how what I did was so fucked up, that I wanted to become a better person before we got back together. But I didn't mean any of it, it was just to see if he would fight for me. And he did. He would beg for me to stay. I was still telling him I was hanging out with all these guys so he would be jealous, still do all this manipulative shit even after I cheated. Through all this we were never officially dating again, but acting like we were (he was keeping it hidden from everyone). After a while I think that the reality of what I did hit, and he decided he wanted to properly end things. The months before he was always saying how in a few months we'd get together, that I was the one, that he was sure we would end up together as we're meant to be. Then he started saying how he didn't know if we would ever even end up together, that maybe we will, maybe we won't. That I should stop waiting for him and see other people. That it was life, and shit happens but we both have to move on. He started seeing the whole situation from a more mature place. I think his family also really ingrained the idea that I'm a sociopath in his head. We went a few months without talking, however ended up talking and seeing eachother other again, and we still do on occasion. But there's no desperation on his part anymore. He takes ages to reply, I have to literally beg him to come over, he only really talks to me or wants to see me when he's depressed or lonely. But still now I'm manipulating him. Telling him the shit that I know will make him feel guilty. I'm becoming the person that in my mind he wants me to be. Dressing how he liked me to dress, listening to the music he liked, doing hobbies he did, only making friends with people that I think he would like. I can't stop. My identity still revolves around him.
Now to the important part. A month after I cheated I did a shit tonne of psychedelics for the first time. It was horrible. The entire trip was just hallucinations telling me how I'm rotten to my core, my blood is bad, I come from a line of people who are bad. That I was born wrong. That the only way to stop hurting people, and stop the generations of evil was to kill myself. I was super freaked out after, but ignored it. A month after that I smoked allot of weed, and relived the entire experience in more detail. It made me realise that so many behaviours I have are not ok. How fucked up I was in the relationship. Then a month later I smoked again, and came to realise even more stuff. Before this I honestly thought I was a good person with good intentions lol. Around 6 months ago is when I started doing allot of research into my behaviours, joining this forum, researching about NPD etc. and I realised that this is what I have. That I lie, I manipulate, I'm a completely empty vessel, I just mirror then discard people when I don't need them anymore, I only care about myself and how I appear to others, nothing in my life or about me is real, because I live in a world of fantasies 99% of these time, I think I'm so superior when in reality I am and have nothing. When I first realised this I completely broke down. I told my mum everything (she denied it and said that she doesn't think I have NPD, that I have some bad traits but everyone does, that they don't define me. That's just how good my mask is). I started telling my therapist the truth, and even he was unsure at the beginning, but we started working on some of my behaviours. I became completely suicidal, realising that I'm the reason that my life has always been horrible and I have no one. Then I would sort of forget about it, avoid the reality of who I am and my life, go back into living in my fantasies, stop going on this forum, and so I'd be ok for a while. I kept repeating these cycles of forgetting all about NPD, and being ok in myself, and becoming obsessed with NPD, and wanting to kill myself. The thing is now when I think about the stuff I did to my ex I actually think I DO feel empathy. He was such a pure soul and I hurt him so much. I physically feel how I hurt him inside of me. I also feel horrible for my behaviours in general, to him, my family, my friends. However, I still can't stop myself manipulating him. I've for sure gotten better, but I still lie to him about so much in regards to the cheating and myself, just to preserve the mask. He's the one I do it the worst with, because the mask I present him is the strongest. I think my narcissistic tendencies definitely got worse with him, as he was so emotionally vulnerable so it made it easier. He also had so much power over me, that the urges to manipulate and mask to keep him were and are so much stronger than with other people in my life that don't have this emotional power over me.
This brings me to last week, where I started watching documentaries of criminal psychiatrists breaking down serial killers/psychopath's profiles and behaviours. It basically looked at their behaviours in questionings and trials, pointing out all the stuff they do to try and get away with the crime they committed. How they manipulate and such. And I do all the things they point out that these criminals are doing. It's exactly what I did to my ex to get away with the cheating. Everything down to the rehearsing beforehand, the facial expressions, the tone, playing the victim, being charming. Everything. It's me. Even some of their backgrounds are similar to mine. Parents that gave me everything and let me get away with everything, making me think the world owes me. And now I'm terrified that I will do something horrific one day. That I will actually truly hurt someone. Loose it and kill someone. I've never gotten violent urges really, never fantasied about hurting people, and when I hear about what these criminals did, I do feel empathy for the victims, and feel completely sick. But at the same time, when I think of what I did to my ex I feel empathy and completely sick, yet is still keep doing it. And what if I loose it one day, in the moment so blinded by anger or jealousy that I kill or hurt someone. It's doesn't even have to be so extreme. I feel like I just fuck my life up more and more every day, I'll loose everyone one day. I have also been going on the narcissistic abuse subreddit allot, and it's been fucking with me. Reading these stories and how the behaviours of the people they talk about are just like mine, realising how fucked up it is hearing from it from the other side. It brings me so much shame, and I think also empathy for the people effected. At the same time, when I read it, it makes me so anxious that my ex will realise wha I am. That he'll start therapy and his therapist will make him realise that I'm a narcissist. I keep looking back at my behaviours with my ex, making sure that I hid them well enough for him to never realise. I want to get better so bad. Stop hurting people. Have a stable life. Not constantly live in fear that someone will find out about my many lies. I don't know what to do. No matter how hard I try I feel like at it's rooted in me. I have literally always been like this, and I think I always will be, it's how I'm programmed and it scares me. I feel like I should never interact with anyone ever again to ensure I don't hurt anyone or get found out for who I truly am (my biggest fear).
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2021.12.09 08:30 refalsalah2030 Three gatherings to be investigated by top civil servant
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2021.12.09 08:30 jasonliew31 Which gold fighters are recommended to invest ?
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2021.12.09 08:30 U53R_3RR0R Advice/Help Needed - UK Dentistry
I am hoping you might be able to help me.
When I was 8 years old I was hit by a car and landed face first on the road. My teeth were smashed and lost three of my upper incisors.
I have struggled a lot since then. From initially having no front teeth at a young age, to having a partial denture as a teenager, and having awkward and unusual braces as a young adult.
I am now 35. I have not been registered with a dentist for many years simply because I cannot afford the fees.
A number of years ago I had a new partial denture made by the local dental university. They were a poor fit. They rocked on my teeth and eventually the grips broke. Now I can only wear them with the aid of dental adhesive. These are still the only dentures I have.
My one remaining upper incisor is very dark and slightly mobile. I once had a dental abscess in this tooth and I think it is either dead or dying.
I have suffered for decades through no fault of my own, and this certainly hasn't helped my self esteem and mental wellbeing.
Can you help me? I am living hand to mouth and cannot afford the enormous fees that most dentists charge. I can't even afford the NHS fees. I need help.
I have reached out to some dental charities but they couldn't do much for me beyond advising me to make an appointment with an emergency dentist.
Is it a good idea to set up a gofundme for dental costs?
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2021.12.09 08:30 Perez4 GRLLA is now available on Pancakeswap
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2021.12.09 08:30 Echo_of_event1930 Welp, no post nut clarify for me I guess
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